Lately, I've been having dreams, all of which, when I analyze them, are pretty much saying to leave someone or something I'm with right now. In one, a boy my age (he was gorgeous by the way *_*) was leading me over rocks, across a serene body of water, throwing back the snakes that were swimming towards us. He took my hand and lead me into an old, somehow familiar and comforting building, it was pitch black. That's not the entire dream in detail, but from what I picked apart, it's symbolyzing that this person is going to protect me, and lead me on the path to healing my old wounds, making me a much, much happier person. The symbols for rebirth were also present in the dream, so whoever this person is, I feel like I really need him right now ;-; I can feel myself sinking into another depression. I need some fucking help, like a psychologist. Or someone, anyone I can talk to. I've never had that. I'd come home from school, from being teased and such, I'd tell mommy and you know what she'd do? Tell me it's my own damn fault. I've never known anyone I can really pour my guts out to, I feel like I'm giving them my problems to deal with too, and nobody wants that. Meh, I shouldn't feel so lonely, but I do. I hate going somewhere when one of my friends is with thier 'someone'. It only reminds me more of what I want. But, I HAVE what I want, yet I still feel....empty, and very, very lonely. Another dream, one I had last night, had the guy I'm with in it, and a girl, something kinda clicked in my head and said he's with her. But, she started crying and hugged me, saying "He told me everything - I'm so, so sorry." It then flashed to a part where I was in the same field, but I was watching him through what seemed to be a cage, what really disturbed me was I was surrounded by what looked like decaying bodies, and I screamed and clawed at the cage, desperately reaching out for him, but he didn't seem to hear me. It goes from there to this part where we're al getting onto elevators, but I arrive too late and the girl gets on one with my boyfriend, I'm left behind alone. The only elevator left's got one of my friend's working it, and it's REALLY dangerous to try and get onto. But he helps me on. The elevator goes down, and I get off in what looks kinda like a really small, crammed version of CHS's auditorium. I make it through the crowd and start to head out where I know I'm supposed to meet my boyfriend - but I wake up there. I've been so confused lately, I feel like I'm gonna explode. I don't WANT to leave him, but all of the dreams I've been having have told me I need to leave him, I HAVE to, lest I am hurt again, left with another unhealing wound. I really wish there was someone who could give me useful advice, I'm having alot of family problems, too. I have to get away from all of it, I'm running out of hearts to break.