Well, he's at a movie with HER. And I'm crying again. Scared. I feel so.....alone. I don't want to go back to how I use to be, that shy little girl in the corner that only got the occasional glance, either because someone felt sorry for her, or thought she was a complete freak. I can't believe him, how he could hurt me like this. I can't believe that even after this I still love him with all of my heart. I just....I don't know what to say other than I would give anything to be able to close my eyes tonight, and never have to open them again. God, I hate this beautiful world.